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12:12 p.m. - 06/30/03 I'm not sure why I can't be ok with leaving this one up as is. I think it has to do with putting it up at a time when I was really in a mindset that I was moving - getting out of D!@#$%^, getting onto public transportation, starting to find my way - and it's taking a lot longer for that to happen. In the meantime, many other things are happening, and some of them make the move more painful than I thought it would be. For instance, the idea of moving before I knew my dad wasn't coming with us is a bit different than the idea of moving now. I just can't bring myself to put up flowers-in-bloom or one of the fifty "Bring Me To Life" (Evanescence) designs...no matter how well-done they are. I think I need something vague. A girl with a not-quite-readable expression, the smile that might be a frown, or the frown that might be a smile.^ I don't like the idea of committing to a mood for more than a few minutes. Then again, I rarely keep a design up for more than a few minutes anyway. Gurgh. * It just occurred to me that talking in this journal about this journal is probably not the most productive use of my time, and since I don't really feel like detailing the newest manner my anger has found to express itself, I'm going to leave this be. Imagine. chord ^Boy in the Girl's Bathroom reference � � |