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10:50 p.m. - 11/11/02
pre-stupor.
I am a sleepy little chordle who has put massive energy into her college application. I am a sleepy little chordle who has nothing left to do before she sends away the papers to the college that will immediately fall in love with her and offer her a home. I am a sleepy little chordle in need of little chordle sleep.

And I'm a little scared to check my e-mail, as a girl I met (but didn't know so well) at RED is in critical condition. I'm in quite a bit of pain at the moment but am persevering through it better than I would have expected of myself.

Damn. Maybe it is something to be torn away from those you love, placed alone in the absolute boonies, given several blows to the stomach and a few more to the heart, take on seven classes and apply to college, and still stay alive and kicking. Well, maybe not kicking at the moment, but merciful to myself, and grateful for whatever g-d is still aware of me. My meal plan is about as doable as calculus right now, and still I persevere. I suck, and yet go me. How odd.

love to all the people who balance this insanity (distance be damned)-
chord

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