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7:00 p.m. - 01/10/03 What I really want...is some peace, man. I don't know. What I really want is a way to feel safe, and the only way to do that is to practice but last time I had to take these kinds of steps- these initial sorts of steps- I had a whole treatment center backing me. I had people cheering every moment, there for every tear. I just don't want to do it on my own. I don't know if I can. I haven't even done what I have to do and I'm already tired. And now I'm getting scared, and that's making things worse. Ok. Tonight, all I have to do is go out. I don't have to do anything else. I don't have to have fun. I don't have to eat (already had dinner). I don't have to talk with any people who are working. I don't even have to go to that CD store and check for the album that I'm hoping is still there. I don't have to do anything except walk outside, go into the garage, sit in the car, buckle my seatbelt, drive down the highway, get out of the car, go into a store, come out of a store, get into the car, drive home, and come back inside. This will end, and it will end with me back here, back safe, in bed with my stuffed animal, the dim light, the soft music. I will be ok. chord *Indigo Girls � � |