01/01/04 - butterflies don't belong in nets. (*)
12/31/03 - ...homeward bound-->
12/30/03 - (you're under mountains now :: but someday you will rise .. like the tide)
12/26/03 - somehow or other, it came just the same.
12/21/03 - however far away, I will always love you..*
12/19/03 - don't let the light go out.
12/15/03 - I must confess: tonight I love you less . than I will tomorrow morning.
12/14/03 - i would be your butterfly:
12/12/03 - the earth has no corners and my map is square.
12/09/03 - ...when I cannot tell precisely where love stops and loss begins::
12/09/03 - yeah, well, we're all scared sometimes.
12/06/03 - or if you're just trying to get by.]
12/04/03 - partly it's the boots, but, mostly it's my chi.
12/03/03 - and I'm brave...I'm brave.
12/02/03 - and it's burning in my chest.>>*
11/29/03 - faring better than the turkey.
11/28/03 - kiss today goodbye.
11/26/03 - stunning monochrome.
11/26/03 - shaking in my sketchers.
11/24/03 - and then empty arms.
11/21/03 - i have earned my disillusionment.
11/19/03 - random recovery rambling.
11/18/03 - neither black nor white.
11/14/03 - i'll remember the suffering your love put you through..*
11/12/03 - --she's afraid of the light in the dark.::-
11/10/03 - luck be a lady.>>
11/08/03 - chord: the emotional doogie howser?
11/08/03 - and you'll be here to see it. stand and breathe it all the day...
11/04/03 - thought contortions.
11/03/03 - and I scream from the top of my lungs - what's going on!!?
11/03/03 - with your southern style : and your hidden dance...
10/29/03 - button up your overcoat.
10/29/03 - unsteady things.
10/26/03 - hear your voice make everything alright.
10/26/03 - he.re we go again.
10/26/03 - you know that I.i will.il follow you...
10/25/03 - pits and peaces.
10/24/03 - i'll be loving you, like I always do...
10/23/03 - if I could sleep, then I would dream of what you promised me...
10/22/03 - someone's heart can't mend.
10/20/03 - they're the ones who get to you.:.
10/16/03 - we interrupt your regularly-scheduled therapy session...
10/16/03 - thank you thank you thank you thank you once again
10/14/03 - 48 hours investigated.
10/13/03 - unjust injury...
10/11/03 - oo,oo,ooh - what a little moonlight can do-oo-ooh.
10/10/03 - i just hope it's enough to buy a miracle.
10/09/03 - hold on til you get through::::
10/09/03 - dyuhlogging.
10/08/03 - the way down deep inside you.
10/07/03 - give me a picture. [] give me a trigger word.
10/06/03 - the best laid plans of mice and chordlings.
10/05/03 - !.!.i'll always be true!.!.
10/05/03 - wonder what it's like.
10/03/03 - thunder wishes it could be the snow.
10/02/03 - ^this is me down on my knees^
09/29/03 - on yet another session.
09/27/03 - sticks and stones and words that stuck to me like ticks.
09/26/03 - I am sorry // that I cannot make // you fall in love // with my love song
09/26/03 - grumpy grief.
09/25/03 - for as long as you will have us, we are yours. and this is your home. and this, my lovely child, is your garden.
09/24/03 - not tonight, josephine.
09/23/03 - all I have to do is call.
09/23/03 - can't stop loving // can't stop what is on its way.
09/22/03 - [walk like the animals:>
09/21/03 - ((we're just waking up.*))
09/20/03 - alexander &...
09/18/03 - somebody leave the light on.
09/17/03 - somewhere where the orchids grow...*
09/17/03 - two girls together, just a little less alone.
09/16/03 - ::show them all how you [[can]] survive::
09/15/03 - the ocean will hold me.
09/10/03 - <( i'd not believe it til I'd loved; I love. *)
09/10/03 - take my love, for love is everlasting.
09/10/03 - live the questions.
09/08/03 - all alone is all i am.
09/07/03 - all night long he sings.
09/06/03 - put a sign on my door.
09/01/03 - odds and middles...
08/30/03 - i happen to life.
08/24/03 - escaping [email protected]#$%^!!!!
08/21/03 - ((never forget you are loved...and worthy.*
08/20/03 - in this world of overrated treasures / and underrated pleasures // i'm glad there is you
08/19/03 - *how can I stand here with you // and not be moved by you?*
08/19/03 - let the roots get warm. |:| let the roots get warm.
08/17/03 - as told on a sunday.
08/16/03 - ::just because you love me the way that you do:->
08/15/03 - if we could hop a flight to anywhere..+
08/14/03 - there I'll find me.
08/13/03 - `can you tell me if I'm near to anywhere but here? []>
08/12/03 - is this real >< or am I dreaming?
08/11/03 - so hard to do. & .. so easy to say.
08/10/03 - time passes; I add another brick to the wall.
08/09/03 - my heart is sick of being in chains.
08/06/03 - are you out there? / can you hear this?
08/06/03 - if the earth won't be still,,,,
08/05/03 - for now, could someone else please volunteer to say - it'll be ok...
08/04/03 - i wish for a place where the earth doesn't shake.
08/03/03 - when life sucks like a vacuum cleaner...
07/31/03 - born(e) *and* raised.
07/31/03 - to be continued.
07/30/03 - never could I leave you. at all.
07/30/03 - call me/ beep me/ if you want to reach me.*
07/29/03 - ..you'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye..
07/28/03 - home, where the music's playing...
07/27/03 - :((the size of our love.::)
07/27/03 - sing me a happy song.!.
07/24/03 - update at the speed of sound.
07/20/03 - did my best with it, at least.
07/19/03 - my amulet, my patronus, protects me. and phoenix tears are healing.
07/19/03 - the sandman can cause he mixes it with...um...and makes the world taste ... er...
07/19/03 - sleepy thoughtlings.
07/17/03 - midnight train (of thought.)
07/14/03 - <:the taxi's waiting...he's blowing his horn::
07/13/03 - it's been one of those days for a lot of days now...
07/10/03 - the mortal who these matters can do...
07/09/03 - in which I rehash what I've already said today, the way one rereads a valentine.
07/09/03 - it's time to make this something that is more than only fair...<3
07/09/03 - :>all I want of living is to keep you close to me.>
07/08/03 - never were words so true..
07/07/03 - fading all too soon...
07/06/03 - hakuna matata.
07/01/03 - on the contrary...the fact that you can feel pain like this is your greatest strength.
06/30/03 - you are the light that is leading me ..)
06/30/03 - like some ridiculous new team uniform for some ridiculous new sport.
06/29/03 - i had a dream my life would be:::>
06/28/03 - saturday night specials.
06/27/03 - everything is still with a fear ... of never following through
06/26/03 - ennervate.
06/25/03 - and there's nothing wrong but there is something more.
06/23/03 - <<*quickest girl in the frying pan]}-
06/22/03 - homeless...
06/19/03 - another week, another session.
06/18/03 - the urge to believe is mostly stronger than belief itself.
06/17/03 - >>>especially when they say>>>they love me<<<
06/15/03 - it's not an end - it's just a start.
06/15/03 - tell me...
06/15/03 - dad day.
06/14/03 - here, there, everywhere.
06/13/03 - lay you down, sleepy child.
06/12/03 - .sand and water [and a million years gone by].
06/11/03 - - just more of the usual stuff. -
06/09/03 - : - so maybe now this prayer's the last one of it's kind.:.
06/08/03 - [ melody played in a penny arcade. o::)
06/07/03 - do you think I am asking too much?
06/06/03 - remembered.
06/06/03 - :: * full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes and things we're all too young to know * ::
06/05/03 - :: only the ones who believe * ever see what they dream ::
06/04/03 - we got something to be.....<
06/03/03 - *-lay down your head and dream, dream...
06/02/03 - (*we.re just waking up*)
06/01/03 - I'm so sorry. I don't want to feel this way.
05/31/03 - wake me up inside.
05/31/03 - no, don't.
05/30/03 - this is the battle we used to call healing.
05/30/03 - ban pomp and circumstance? check.
05/29/03 - ::just sitting around being foolish when there is work to be done::
05/29/03 - nothing's better than more, more, more.
05/29/03 - this little piggy ... all the way home.
05/27/03 - i can't begin to explain.
05/26/03 - i promise i'll believe you this time.
05/26/03 - graduation speech #1.
05/25/03 - this time I'll save myself.
05/24/03 - :[:maybe I should tell him mine:]:
2003-05-23 - lay it all down. sword and shield.
05/22/03 - atlas crumbled.
05/21/03 - [::^what is real and just a dream:::^}
05/20/03 - mine, mine, miiiiine.
05/19/03 - ::: the luckiest people in the world. ;-)
05/18/03 - hold me like you'll never let me go. >>
05/17/03 - go read the caged entry. it's better.
05/17/03 - .the best psychiatrist (excluding superdoc) is the one inside you.
05/15/03 - be true and be strong.
05/14/03 - the spark that lies beneath the coals :*:
05/13/03 - ::despite the damage they will still warm to the touch::
05/12/03 - ^^ tomorrow, tomorrow. ^^
05/09/03 - *:| we'll see how brave you are. |:*
05/08/03 - [] - i don't know how. to get it back. to good. - []
05/08/03 - and then empty arms. )):
05/06/03 - :some are being born:
05/05/03 - * we'll keep you close, as always. *
05/04/03 - :: no matter how far. ::
05/04/03 - [:-we are fighting on .two different fronts. of the same war-:]
05/03/03 - foresaken.
05/02/03 - ( trust ::the voice:: within. )
05/02/03 - til you get out of this mess.
05/01/03 - //..this train rocks steady...\-
04/30/03 - ..:slowly unravel.::-
04/23/03 - there's no business like show business, like no business I know.
04/23/03 - alive.
04/19/03 - are you sure where your *spark* is.
04/18/03 - lady in red...
04/17/03 - my face, my pretty face, gets lost in the crowd.
04/17/03 - no longer crazy for feeling.
04/16/03 - there...and running around | and following me...
04/15/03 - (.an unexpected song.)
04/15/03 - let me fall.
04/14/03 - don't you try to save me with your advice. or turn me into somebody else.
04/13/03 - we didn't light it ... but we tried to fight it.
04/13/03 - quotes.
04/13/03 - isn't she beau - ti - ful?
04/12/03 - homesickening.
04/11/03 - state of the heart address.
04/10/03 - still searching for a garden.
04/08/03 - *i : promise :: i'll believe ::: you this time:
04/07/03 - ?* what is it in me that refuses to believe ::?::
04/06/03 - when*you*gonna*love*you ~ as*much*as*I*do?
04/05/03 - -going through. |::])-
04/04/03 - inspection pt 1.
04/03/03 - everything will be wonderful someday.
04/03/03 - shh.
04/01/03 - !!please don't leave me [[alone]].
04/01/03 - my inner pessimist.
03/31/03 - fall :: in love with my love song...
03/11/03 - affirmative reaction.
03/30/03 - up and down & down and up.
03/29/03 - i can no longer shop happily.
03/29/03 - private publication.
03/28/03 - raging down a spiral stair.))*)
03/27/03 - i remember your future, almost.
03/27/03 - just this and that. (i.e. nothing.)
03/26/03 - ::a vision of you ... carried me through::
03/25/03 - wednesdays work better.
03/24/03 - i think life chose me.
03/23/03 - so if you find me, could you kindly - show me the way (home).
03/22/03 - holy cricket- good things really come to those who wait!
03/21/03 - right on track. >>>>>>>>*>
03/20/03 - where they care about what time it is and spend their days answering the phone.:;>
03/20/03 - build higher walls around me. ]*[ change every lock and key.
03/20/03 - that was now. this is then.
03/18/03 - i >wait ::for:: you to take _ my hand.*
03/17/03 - i : am : trying to : evolve:::
03/16/03 - just want to feel. (.) safe in my own skin.
03/16/03 - warriors like me.
03/15/03 - things that make my head hurt.
03/13/03 - \"when we all want to seem like we've got it all figured out.::
03/12/03 - so tired of playing, playing with this bow and arrow. >
03/11/03 - |||everybody hurts. sometimes everybody cries...hold on.:>
03/10/03 - black-winged roses.
03/10/03 - I talk so all the time. so.
03/09/03 - you ask how my day was...*
03/09/03 - no point. no point at all.
03/08/03 - cerebral scattergories.
03/08/03 - learned so much more about the good guys...
03/07/03 - sit in a chair and be good now.
03/07/03 - ||make me feel like crying tears I don't deserve.]
03/06/03 - i hear my voice ! i hear my voice ! i hear my voice
03/06/03 - grr.
03/06/03 - never wanna do that stuff..
03/05/03 - as frightened as a girl ::with a secret:: could be
03/04/03 - the seas will part before you.:)
03/04/03 - yeehaw, edaw.
03/04/03 - white-knuckling.
03/03/03 - -:haven't seen Barbados.:::]
03/03/03 - nobody can make me do another bit.!.
03/02/03 - my truth, dadblastit, mine.
03/02/03 - |/don't sit and watch yourself grow old.:.
03/01/03 - beauty just because.
02/28/03 - i've got a plan to get us out of here. ::>
02/28/03 - your heart has a home in mine.))))
02/26/03 - \"I would rather be locked to you. ::'::
02/25/03 - ::you said it was ok to be between reality and a dream. ** find me:
02/25/03 - at mercy house, we fell.
02/25/03 - birfday..*
02/24/03 - (:(i'll be *-* better when I'm older.))
02/23/03 - just me and all the memories to follow down...>
02/23/03 - drive-by journaling.
02/22/03 - listen for the February birds.
02/21/03 - people agree with you. that doesn't make you right. ]:-
02/20/03 - +:the pain is manifest in my resistence to your love:+
02/20/03 - oh man, what is this about.
02/20/03 - a disorder and.> *
02/19/03 - ..*you're gonna make it,. you're gonna make it,,. you're gonna make it,. girl:!:
02/18/03 - :any day now: () my ship will finally come in..
02/18/03 - :*a hell of a lot)-(of clean cold snow::
02/17/03 - !:i'm a bubble in a soundwave!.!]
02/16/03 - miss live and let live.
02/15/03 - doctor, doctor - give me the news !! i've got a bad case of lovin you...;)
02/13/03 - army of one. :..
02/12/03 - love, love me do.
02/11/03 - we find magic everywhere.*
02/10/03 - if I know crazy...^
02/08/03 - root root root for the home team.
02/08/03 - [[!you better believe that I am trying to beat this.!.>
02/08/03 - ~one with the fools of love::]
02/07/03 - *come to my window. :]]]
02/06/03 - pieces of me you've never seen.::*
02/05/03 - so I'll keep climbing this mountain....:/^
02/04/03 - hungry.
02/03/03 - marbles found.:]|
02/02/03 - [[(come home come home come home comehome comehome:comehome]))
02/01/03 - :/.maybe some tiny shiny key*...\:
01/31/03 - why can't they love me right?
01/30/03 - let me take time breathing in. *>>>
01/29/03 - head above the poison gas.
01/28/03 - then I wouldn't feel lost and so frightened.
01/28/03 - if I hear one more time about a fool's right to his tools of rage.!
01/28/03 - \::if there's anything left, you need it now::/
01/27/03 - even if it takes my whole life...
01/26/03 - i'm me not him.
01/26/03 - where I can whisper what I know.
01/25/03 - needing.
01/25/03 - setting myself up to be knocked down.
01/24/03 - fits and pieces.
01/23/03 - why would I want to let a good thing pass me by?*
01/23/03 - dear dearheart.
01/22/03 - thoughts right now.
01/21/03 - the darkness into which praying people pray.
01/21/03 - the white knight is talking backwards.
01/21/03 - she's just trying to evolve.
01/20/03 - obsession does not equal intuition. obsession does not equal intuition.
01/19/03 - but I tell you ::life is sweet:: in spite of the misery; there's so much more. be grateful.
01/19/03 - this not so funny ache.
01/18/03 - it's the grammar of faith. ::|^
01/17/03 - i've got to fight /:/ i've got to fight.
01/17/03 - blah. honesty.
01/16/03 - me versus my head. (round two thousand six hundred and four.)
01/16/03 - you see, and to me, that's poetry too.
01/14/03 - this, that, and the other thing.
01/13/03 - you've got to admit it's getting better.
01/13/03 - oh, yes, you are alive.
01/12/03 - starting to be.
01/12/03 - to the pain.
01/11/03 - anywhere we bear the burden of our destinies. -]]
01/10/03 - you the youngest,, fullest of heart
01/10/03 - fitted to a frame.
01/10/03 - how the hermit crab found its home: through its own direction.
01/09/03 - [''take me home and leave! me! there!!.........
01/09/02 - whatever it takes.
01/08/03 - !:why don't you make the rules?*!
01/07/03 - connection.
01/07/03 - confessions.
01/06/03 - she's got a light around her : and everywhere she goes : a million dreams of love surround her *
01/06/03 - what I am is what I am.
01/05/03 - :i'll claim my freedom. _[*]_
01/05/02 - ```if you lived here you'd be home now.''`
01/03/03 - * i am not from your tribe. {!}
01/01/03 - I could drink a case of you, darling. ***
01/01/03 - another year and I'm still here.
12/31/02 - ..maybe this year will be ^ better than the last..
12/31/02 - eep.
12/31/02 - i found the secret to life ://: i'm ok when everything is not ok
12/30/02 - medless wordage.
12/29/02 - to get my soul free.-------->
12/29/02 - .if shame had a face, I think it would kind of look like mine::.
12/28/02 - *this is not my fault.]]
12/27/02 - keep climbing this mountain. /^\
12/26/02 - imperfect symmetry has underlying poetry and rhyme.
12/25/02 - :-until then, we'll have to muddle through somehow!:
12/24/02 - *:.since I've no place to go.:*
12/21/02 - international i-love-tracy day.
12/20/02 - *`~threads that are golden..:**
12/20/02 - shannon, who reminds me I'm invincible in exchange for my breath.
12/18/02 - !:the moment I decide not to : abandon me.))*
12/17/02 - ford every stream.
12/16/02 - or not. (2)
12/15/02 - eleos dojo.
12/13/02 - ickly.
12/12/02 - before my spirit falls again.
12/12/02 - in need of a kiss for the beauty inside me.
12/11/02 - life is never dull in your head - a sorry tale of action and the men you left for women and the men you left for intrigue and the men you left for dead.
12/10/02 - damn new-agey pseudo-peace.
12/09/02 - this probably won't make sense to me tomorrow.
12/09/02 - quickly.
12/07/02 - **my heartbreak always breaks my fall!>-!
12/05/02 - give me one reason to stay here.
12/04/02 - she didn't play marianne. she played marybrave.
12/02/02 - **(fear or love, baby?***)
12/01/02 - *nobody touched her/ / no scars to show--)
12/01/02 - further ado.
12/01/02 - upsetted.
11/30/02 - home from so far...)
11/29/02 - me sleep now.
11/28/02 - yet another rural vortex.
11/26/02 - |squeezing out of all the bad;]
11/24/02 - ~time can bend your knees.))
11/23/02 - &and-though-I-know who.i'm.not - I still don't know who.i.am.*
11/22/02 - from here to birmingham I got a few friends.
11/22/02 - postmaster chordkid.
11/21/02 - ((somewhere between holiness |and borrowed time]]
11/20/02 - a secret rodeo.
11/18/02 - lest I be neglectful.
11/16/02 - write me. i miss you. :heart:
11/15/02 - ..if one day I find my peace of mind.,.
11/14/02 - *when will I learn:::
11/13/02 - still. need. sleep.
11/12/02 - crazy for feeling>>
11/11/02 - pre-stupor.
11/10/02 - if I lived in spite// would you still be here, no// would you disappear?
11/09/02 - kerploowie. you're done.
11/09/02 - home-sickness.
11/08/02 - must. get. sleep.
11/07/02 - quickly.
11/06/02 - -sometimes it's all that we can do just to hang on-
11/05/02 - [so we go from year to year with secrets:----
11/05/02 - officially nominating chococat for president.
11/04/02 - relationshit: the dialogue continues.
11/03/02 - further dialogue as sounded through the tears...
11/02/02 - -when you really don't want me to::=
11/01/02 - one step. one breath. one moment. one hope.
11/01/02 - par[a]nts.
10/31/02 - the wobblin' goblin with the broken broom...
10/30/01 - _..i search for ::orion:: in the sky.....
10/29/02 - mistakes are an acquired taste.
10/28/02 - where is my hope now? all my heroes have gone*
10/27/02 - ((don't really care // as long as there mine))
10/25/02 - the skky is fallling and no one knowws
10/24/02 - still.
10/23/02 - love is.
10/23/02 - als;djf (sorry)
10/22/02 - they can't hurt you now// can't hurt you now// can't hurt you now-oh-ow-oh-ow
10/21/02 - and if you go chasing rabbits.....]
10/20/02 - .randomness.:*
10/19/02 - =scared to breathe// tired of being lonely=
10/19/02 - no home on the range...
10/18/02 - this/ that/ the other thing.
10/17/02 - :&peeling back the layers):
10/15/02 - :back home to me=:-
10/15/02 - no more curses you can't undo...
10/14/02 - regaining my balance.
10/14/02 - tree fog//flight......:*
10/12/02 - home/family/forever/etc
10/12/02 - did they love you or what?
10/10/02 - so little sleep /\ so many words --
10/10/02 - #so much to say, so much to say-e-ay#
10/07/02 - ^trying times>
10/06/02 - (no room for a lie so verbose++>
10/05/02 - whyyyy in this land?
10/04/02 - hoping we could be raw together.
10/04/02 - --she's a hurricane-->::
10/03/02 - shit.
10/02/02 - ..thor and blues songs.
10/01/02 - %lean on me%
09/30/02 - '''quiet here except for this song'*'
09/29/02 - =lead me to the holy water=
09/27/02 - 00spilling unintended words00
09/26/02 - ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,*
09/26/02 - -/-coming apart at the seams...--
09/25/02 - +little reprieves+
09/24/02 - &&&like a bird into the sky of my brain(.))
09/23/02 - didn't plan to say this.
09/22/02 - ||cocooned in my room]--
09/21/02 - or not.
09/20/02 - ::the precipice between groundlessness and flight::~
09/20/02 - struggling a bit.
09/19/02 - oh, baby, maybe someday][oh baby maybe somehow...
09/18/02 - oh-i'm-too-tired-to-think-of-titles.
09/18/02 - [\|it's a hard knock life\"\
09/17/02 - *
09/16/02 - ////it wouldn't be make believe+if you believed in me{}}}}
09/16/02 - ::awaiting ** tears::
09/15/02 - \"|:i wanta hear your voice make everything alright|:\"
09/14/02 - :/i lived a whole life in one night\:
09/14/02 - i'll write something important later. really.
09/13/02 - |[making life size models of the velvet underground in clay::|
09/12/02 - [[//looking. back- seeing far -landing //right// where we are::||
09/11/02 - >>will I be saved if I am brave...]-->
09/11/02 - ::give... the darkness... back its soul::
09/10/02 - :\excuse me, but can -I be you- for awhile::\]
09/09/02 - [::seem to be ||happening|| again-)
09/09/02 - |...|
09/08/02 - we now return to my regularly scheduled personas. (please?)
09/07/02 - |and yes, \"I've fallen and I can't get up\" did come to mind|\
09/06/02 - -::light of some kind::-
09/05/02 - .standard deviant..
09/03/02 - (-somebody: leave the :light: on-)
09/03/02 - [[crazy// for feeling: so lonely...:|:
09/02/02 - reach out // don't reach in...
09/02/02 - she whines.
09/02/02 - [oh/oh, it ain't easy[[|
08/31/02 - ||this is today-]
08/30/02 - ::jigsaw pieces of my past->::
08/29/02 - lack of brainage.
08/28/02 - :-we never stop looking for all the chances we've lost-:
08/27/02 - :i learned a lot from rainbow brite!:
08/25/02 - maybe I can forget that there's anything wrong // maybe I can go on living my life
08/23/02 - don't take me seriously. but don't leave me. seriously.
08/21/02 - [[it still smarts like::it was four- minutes ago[|
08/20/02 - (...for the moment, something's lifted])
08/20/02 - she's sitting a foot away while I type this. spaaaaaaaaaace...
08/19/02 - subtle graffirmations.
08/18/02 - not a long time// but it's longer than a day
08/17/02 - ::that's the way I want to be // colorful and crazy loud and absolutely free::
08/17/02 - cultivating thomas.
08/16/02 - possibly tomorrow.
08/15/02 - black holes.
08/14/02 - three cheers for the lonely girl.
08/11/02 - and we'll be jolly friends...
08/10/02 - there's a line in beyond codependency...(oh, that'll bring the readers rollin' in...)
08/10/02 - .obscured vision & so forth.
08/09/02 - my life's really a lot nicer than I make it sound...
08/08/02 - home: make my bed and light the light...
08/08/02 - i can't find me.
08/07/02 - do you have [[any idea]] what they've :put: you through=
08/06/02 - top ten reasons our chordling should not go without therapy.
08/06/02 - back to pencils, back to books, back to teachers' dirty looks.
08/05/02 - you've always been a good girl, smart girl, pretty girl, lucky girl, happy as the day is long...
08/05/02 - ramblin' rose...
08/04/02 - return to bumblef*ck.
08/02/02 - last night I just kept saying - I won't let her make me cry.
08/01/02 - random NYC update number five
07/31/02 - isn't this vacation? why am I not relaxed? [installment four]
07/31/02 - a little bit of nonsense, a little bit of nothing. [installment three]
07/29/02 - further nyc excitement. [installment two]
07/30/02 - my adventures in the empire state. [first installment]
07/20/02 - (in which) i start making a deal, inspired by gravity.
07/19/02 - apples. tomatoes. rudolph's nose.
07/18/02 - he. won't. write. back.
07/18/02 - [*[that little spot on the ground is /my hometown|:
07/17/02 - i'm her little goat.
07/16/02 - []saving grace.[]
07/15/02 - s.o.s. :: stranded on the nomanisan island
07/13/02 - this is a title.
07/13/02 - it's true I do imbue my blue--
07/12/02 - i want an attachment disorder.
07/12/02 - if I walk down this hallway tonight, it's too quiet.
07/12/02 - the pisces and the cancer...
07/11/02 - why do today what you can put off until tomorrow -
07/11/02 - in which genuine gratitude sounds frightfully crush-like.
07/10/02 - ((it's here and it's now you must help if you can))
07/09/02 - they be my water. when i'm thirsty and dry.
07/09/02 - (walking this sweet freedom struggle of mine)
07/08/02 - entertaining elisabeth.
07/08/02 - nice to meet you. again.
07/06/02 - i stand on my own neck.
07/06/02 - for this one...i need...m/e:rcy.
07/05/02 - you're blooming within?
07/05/02 - ->take good care of my baby...*
07/04/03 - what's new, buenos aires.
07/03/02 - don't let me get me. [guilty pop girl...]
07/02/02 - i suppose ::this:: is why all the real ones have their sidekicks.
07/02/02 - it doesn't matter; no, it's just more words.
07/01/02 - >quickest girl in the frying pain.<<<<
07/01/02 - '''this ocean goes round and round that pineapple tree'''
07/01/02 - you're not too tired for this life.
06/30/02 - [[[don't believe the lies that they have told to you[[[
06/29/02 - [another turning point /\ a fork stuck in the road]
06/29/02 - there goes my pain // there goes my chains // did you see them fall?
06/29/02 - stickshifts and safetybelts...
06/29/02 - more recovery.
06/28/02 - old friEnDs. new enemies.
06/28/02 - >>little girl, they'll do you no harm.>>
06/27/02 - earning my screenname.
06/26/02 - :have you ever felt like your secrets give you away?:
06/24/02 - it's seven in the morning, the end of ju-u-une.
06/23/02 - .pigtails and all..
06/23/02 - nothing keeps me up at night...
06/22/02 - ...it's the strangest thing - i'm sad and i don't care...
06/22/02 - [[i can feel this narcolepsy slide...into another nightmare.]]
06/21/02 - i believe she can fly...
06/21/02 - vile disease: the comeback tour.
06/20/02 - everybody's [going to leave] me.
06/20/02 - blood (as in, from my veins), blood (as in, my family), calls, stories, and dreams.
06/19/02 - tutu list.
06/19/02 - I know you care.
06/19/02 - sometimes it feels like peanuts // dre-e-e-e-eam, dream, dream, dream.
06/18/02 - no sir: \"i'm here to keep my eye on her...\"
06/16/02 - ...and you're my medicine...
06/16/02 - fall from heights so high.
06/16/02 - ./every answer feels wrong./
06/15/02 - } - regretfully, only three simple things to say. - {
06/14/02 - as my life has been altered once// it [[can]] change* again.
06/13/02 - my stomach hurts when I hear your name.
06/13/02 - it just may be a lunatic you're looking for...
06/12/02 - i'm writing this entry for myself. it probably won't matter to you.
06/11/02 - daydream believer...
06/10/02 - my head is narrating this with an irish accent.
06/10/02 - too many times.
06/10/02 - and if I call, who will answer? and if I fall, will you pick me up?
06/09/02 - ::let your love cover me / like a pair of angel wings::
06/08/02 - --not one of your [::little toys::]--
06/08/02 - >>made a mistake and kissed a snake...how many doctors did it take.<<
06/07/02 - finding feelings// I thought were [[-buried inside...
06/06/02 - i wish the world ran on monopoly money. or good intentions.
06/05/02 - patient seems steady and markedly fatigued.
06/04/02 - it's all in your mind// she said// the darkness and the light
06/03/02 - can't stop what's coming // can't stop what is on its way...
06/01/02 - the fearful always play upon your confidence.
05/31/02 - my life in ] [fifteen minutes] [ or less.
05/31/02 - wordless.
05/28/02 - suns and moons all over the place.
05/28/02 - when we return to our heroine...
05/26/02 - something [sky] blue.
05/25/02 - documentation of my medical condition won't help me sleep tonight.
05/25/02 - >you come [[regular]] like *^seasons*.
05/25/02 - one heartache is more than enough.
05/23/02 - just got a letter to my soul.
05/23/02 - memo: i am the adolescent. me.
05/22/02 - i'm going to be random, aren't I?
05/21/02 - a hiding place.
05/21/02 - um.
05/19/02 - the skyline is two gazes long...
05/15/02 - nobody loves me// it's true\ ...not. like. you. do.
05/14/02 - this entry would not be checked in the express lane.
05/12/02 - aches like a muscle each time that it moves.
05/12/02 - charm (v.) to induce by using strong personal attractiveness.
05/10/02 - head needs examination. again.
05/08/02 - breaking news.
05/08/02 - topic tap-dance.
05/04/01 - temporarily, I would.
05/03/02 - i need a bodyguard.
04/30/02 - mercy.
04/27/02 - you read this. you poor dear.
04/25/02 - when will you come rescue me
04/23/02 - no! I don't want to be an eyesore.
04/22/02 - this topic. no, this one. no, wait- I've got it now...
04/22/02 - break out the needles and the hooks.
04/21/02 - switched to overload.
04/20/02 - literary hangovers & bibliophilic withdrawal.
04/19/02 - fair books & feminists...
04/18/02 - constantly re-typing words I spell the English way...
04/18/02 - to send or not to send. [have I completely lost it?]
04/18/02 - why sit around resigned?
04/18/02 - ring my bell.
04/17/02 - [[and break the stallions of my wildest expectations>>
04/17/02 - just more questions...different kind.
04/13/02 - everything I can think of to think about.
04/11/02 - i'm a miracle. my stories have none of that.
04/10/02 - no hablo inglés.
04/10/02 - you tell me what's real.
04/09/02 - no worries.
04/07/02 - am I
04/06/02 - it's stupid and it's obvious.
04/05/02 - jenna, if I call you, will you tell me I'm your rock?
04/05/02 - that's the sound of my brain. cracking. 2
04/05/02 - it's my journal and I'll be random if I want to.
04/04/02 - the girl of many subjects.
04/03/02 - maybe I should tell him mine.
04/01/02 - i don't know what you saw ://: I want somebody who sees me.
03/31/02 - thank you clarity...
03/29/02 - yes, I know what you think of me :: you never shut up.
03/28/02 - promises of someday make [[her]] dreams.
03/24/02 - is that all there is? then let's keep dancing...
03/24/02 - is that all there is? then let's keep dancing...
03/23/02 - the prodigal and the estranged.
03/23/02 - coming of age during a plague.
03/22/02 - walk around in circles walk around in circles walk around in...
03/19/02 - you and your preconceived notions about sentence structure.
03/19/02 - there is so much more to us than nothing.
03/17/02 - played on a solo saxophone...
03/16/02 - back on the warpath.
03/16/02 - reason#1 censorship would not be *all* bad.
03/14/02 - if you keep your eyes that way...
03/13/02 - so you jumped and you're still flying...
03/13/02 - still it seems a tragic fate.
03/12/02 - this funny ache...
03/12/02 - thank you for everything you gave without knowing...
03/10/02 - what if my skin is truly a sculpture made from tears..?
03/09/02 - machete clawed mace face...
03/08/02 - sadness, sobriety, & self-indulgence. (from a semi-somnambular state.)
03/04/02 - am I thirteen for good?
03/03/02 - say the coast is clear...
03/02/02 - room without a door.
03/01/02 - circle, triangle, circle, triangle, ___.
02/27/02 - so lonely I don't even want to be with myself
02/26/02 - should i stay or should i go.
02/26/02 - even when I am overwhelmed.
02/23/02 - moving at the speed of sound.
02/22/02 - i am poison. i am.
02/22/02 - crazy good ideas in my head.
02/21/02 - keeper.
02/21/02 - puppykat.
02/21/02 - nature girl.
02/20/02 - since I know you were all wondering.
02/20/02 - ten more minutes...
02/19/02 - babblement of my favorite (and most incoherent) sort.
02/19/02 - the hang in there kitty poster comes to mind.
02/19/02 - i >hate> [[this.[..
02/17/02 - hold me now and let it be. shelter me/ comfort me..
02/16/02 - thank you.
02/14/02 - scatterbrain.
02/13/02 - flowerchord.
02/13/02 - the cold collegiate battle.
02/11/02 - ||>around me like a weed.<
02/10/02 - a battle that cannot end in peace.
02/09/02 - all the lights that light the way are blinding.
02/08/02 - wonder of wonder, miracle of miracles.
02/08/02 - a day's just a thing to get through.
02/07/02 - prayers.
02/07/02 - surveying hell.
02/07/02 - circles and circles and circles again.
02/06/02 - sold my transitions and my translations in a two-for-one.
02/05/02 - all we know of heaven and all we need of hell.
02/04/02 - call me a fool.......
02/04/02 - internet junk for the internet junkie.
02/03/02 - get that entry off the index page...
02/03/02 - in hopes someone will see.
02/03/02 - find my way, the best that I know how...
02/02/01 - quest?ons.
02/01/02 - incomprehensible whining.
01/31/02 - bloog.
01/31/02 - eeeeeeeewwwwww. owwwwwwwww.
01/31/02 - chasing tornadoes.
01/30/02 - where the biscuits - are soft and sweet.
01/29/02 - their eyes would pass over you.
01/28/02 - you'll be given love. you'll be taken care of.
01/28/02 - early morning incongruence.// be brave like bobby.
01/26/02 - conciseness is just censorship in disguise.
01/26/02 - fuck you. come back.
01/25/02 - david mamet is the (unmentioned) devil.
01/25/02 - consider this. even if it don't make sense...
01/24/02 - upstairs, I have blankets.
01/24/02 - poihtree.
01/24/02 - this can't be real.
01/24/02 - it may be a dirge; but this dance is mine.
01/23/02 - brought to you by the letter a.
01/23/02 - in which I pretend proper capitilization doesn't matter.
01/22/02 - girl she says she's got a headache.
01/22/02 - my name is mary and I'm a q-naire addict.
01/22/02 - somewhere in my chest/ all the noise just gets/ crushed by the song...
01/21/02 - calling all the forces in
01/21/02 - all stuffed with fluff.
01/20/02 - managed to save just a little bit of money...
01/20/02 - loneliness to madness. dream long enough for change.
01/20/02 - don't want to be the filler if the void is solely yours...
01/19/02 - too much time and not enough quizzes.
01/18/02 - no me gusta monarchies.
01/18/02 - lend me some fresh air.
01/18/02 - pre-walk.
01/17/02 - .lurking like a troll under the bridge between your heart. and your head.
01/16/02 - breakthroughs from the p.o.v. of brokenness.
01/15/02 - if god is a bit much, just believe in santa.
01/14/02 - is self-help helpful? private investigation.
01/14/02 - rah...
01/13/02 - you and your overrated transitions. me and my overrated madness.
01/12/02 - the atomallies. our chord has co-conspirators.
01/12/02 - in which i babble on about uninteresting medical shit.
01/11/02 - dear god. santa had a busy signal.
01/10/02 - show me the way back to the garden...
01/10/02 - my study habits are sub-par, but I really *am* a decent kid.
01/09/01 - please don't let my parents kill me. please don't give up yet.
01/08/02 - [.these are.] not all of the-| infintesimal things-|, you can find wrong with me...
01/07/02 - craving revolution.
01/07/02 - [[i don't want to be ugly inside. don't say those words anymore.]]
01/06/02 - gotta um um pass it on.
01/06/02 - [[if my..mind..would-just-stop---racing---.>>>
01/05/02 - balancing between braindeath and bohemia...
01/05/02 - to the day we can call it over and begin to breathe again.
01/04/02 - it's good to have goals. it's better to reach them.
01/04/02 - read the dictionary. it will help you. really.
01/03/02 - -is there someone who can - take me in.?. -rainer maria
01/02/01 - i don't hate you; i just can't hate me...
12/31/01 - let's quit thinking and draw cartoons.
12/31/01 - i run off where the drifts get deeper...
12/31/01 - tracing.
12/30/01 - if you don't ask the right question- every answer feels wrong.
12/30/01 - does.yourskin-make-you...gag?
12/30/01 - i should know better than to read mess feeling as I do.
12/29/01 - ||with this nganon, one could poison by osmosis...!|
12/29/01 - mama, this must be my dream...
12/28/01 - [hello, darkness- my old friend.>>
12/27/01 - the unbearable suffocation of being...
12/27/01 - >>certain these ::clouds:: -go- somewhere...?>
12/25/01 - she was the sunlight* on ripened grain...she was the gentle morning rain.
12/23/01 - think I'm gonna sing--> ,myself, a lullaby./
12/22/01 - (-and I'm -somewhere-> ||in between|| what is real? and just a dream...>
12/21/01 - --.girls who can't be golden threads settle to eat pizza and never gain weight.-->
12/19/01 - that's the <>sound<> of my brain! cracking...>?
12/18/01 - "there's no! such <-thing as -<-inexplicable.|"
12/17/01 - where<>am|I->goingto<--?
12/16/01 - this/is/not/a/real/request..._->yet.
12/15/01 - i'm not troubled or sad/ i'm just ready for bed...>?<
12/15/01 - >who's to say that i'm not there?>
12/14/01 - despite all my rage/ i am still just a rat in a cage..>
12/13/01 - assertive kittens enjoy their milk more.
12/13/01 - i wonder<<< but I just^ .don'tknow.--
12/12/01 - tired/atlas.
12/11/01 - fairytale of new york.
12/01/01 - i deserve good things.
11/30/01 - gettingcloser-->gettingcloser-->stillnot.home.
11/28/01 - how wrong it felt to leave is how right it feels to go.
11/28/01 - hi, i'm special. talk to me in happy tones.
11/27/01 - she reminds me of what I really am. (2)
11/26/01 - in which I use "I feel" statements...
11/26/01 - the new karate kid.
11/25/01 - there.must-be.life.-somewhere-amid.all.this.farm.equipment..-
11/25/01 - myself, were she a good thing. ->
11/24/01 - temporarily. possessed
11/24/01 - scattered thoughts.
11/23/01 - jigitty-jig.
11/23/01 - climb on.
11/22/01 - boycott thanksgiving: rant.
11/22/01 - boycott thanksgiving: whine.
11/21/01 - ramblings.are.red, maryisblue.
11/21/01 - ks choice come back to me.
11/20/01 - "they think i'm crazy...they don't know that I like it here"
11/18/01 - are,you,sure,that.i'm.your.perfect.dear?
11/18/01 - homesourhome.
11/17/01 - letter to keep from calling.
11/17/01 - rotten.grrl...
11/16/01 - shegrievesin heshadows.
11/16/01 - struckchord.