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4:55 p.m. - 03/01/03 Yeah. I'm surprisingly ok. Sad, somewhat, a bit upset, but mostly alright. I'm so used to death being such a horribly wrong thing, and this...isn't, necessarily. I mean, Mr. Rogers touched more of the world through one episode of television than many people do in their entire lives. He's given *so much.* And he always seems so peaceful; I can't imagine that changed as he was dying. I can't imagine him anything else but ok, but gentle and kind and filled with love, and I can't imagine that he isn't all those things now as well. What can I say? He's my hero, in a very real way. He's my neighbor, always. I want to remember Josephine the Short-Necked Giraffe which was my absolute favorite episode. And The Land of Make-Believe, and the projects at his kitchen table, and Speedy Delivery, and Lady Elaine Fairchild, on and on and on. I've learned that there are many gifts in death, whether or not they can make up for the loss itself, and one of the gifts is all the things you work more fully to remember. I want to remember Mister Rogers as one of the people who saved my life; I want to remember him as I develop it. I don't consider it a coincidence that he and RED have the same last name. I don't, I don't, I don't... I wrote this a very little bit ago, with very little revising. All sentiment, no style, basically... I don't feel, for the moment, like there's anything wrong with that. You I Like I feel important I learned that at every sunrise you never forgot to make-believe, you always come back. there are many ways to say I love you because of you, ...for purely sentiment, the last line still nearly makes me cry. I don't usually cry at my own poems. What a beautiful man. I must remember him as I carve my own identity. I must remember him when I'm drawn to generalize about what "man" means. I must remember him. (I say as if that would be difficult. Oh, no; it would be difficult not to.) chord � � |