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8:55 p.m. - 01/18/02 school will not house her, they have still - something bothers her if you do not like odd third person 1. a letter from harriet saying in no uncertain terms school is not a happening event at the moment 2. a letter from dr. r saying that my reality is real and i should not doubt myself 3. a meeting with harriet wherein she discusses the fact that i am not going to school, she was not involved in that decision, and from now on she will make the recommendations 4. mary a bit nervous about the insinuated power struggle; after all, harriet is very competant, but dr. r is the one who makes feel like liquid dreaming 5. a return home whereupon mom rants about how she's being left out of the loop and i tell her it isn't her loop to be in 6. calls between dr. r and mom regarding how much i don't love her as well as why he should be in charge 7. thoughts keeping me up about how he is the one i trust most unflinchingly, yet my recovery is perhaps the only part of me my mom does not yet own stock in - therefore, if the doc "in charge" could be the one she doesn't want (harriet not r) perhaps it would be a good way for me to gain ground 8. tomorrow when i meet with him i want to make it known that he is the one i trust without question and harriet is the one whose competance keeps her on-board - however, were our decisions to vary too much, she might find herself fired, only i have separation anxiety and don't want to do this, only why on earth would a class system be better than happy-communication between doctors? 9. i think it's good for me to go to a doctor i don't swoon over; it keeps me from being in love with therapy too much, but if we disagree too thoroghly here, that could be a problem except 10. i don't want my mom to think she won... shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhit.fan. chord � � |