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12:15 p.m. - 03/09/03 This is the first session in weeks that I've managed to forget I have. The first session that I haven't survived day by day through the awareness of, not to imply it's the first session I could live without. I'm very glad it's here, this session. I'm just surprised. Maybe, off and on, I've been doing better the past few days. I want to know why I'm on sleeping meds when I didn't sleep my normal nine hours. And I don't want the answer to be because we need to go up again. I've defended him at every end as not being a pill-pusher. I so don't want to be on six different pills. You know this already. Sometimes it seems like you know everything. But you don't. I'd tell you something you don't know, but that would defeat the purpose. Right now I just want to sleep, which I'll replace with drawing. I have new colored pencils, which is almost as good as working neurotransmitters. I can pretend... chord � � |