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9:30 a.m. - 06/16/02 * I figure as long as I'm saying things that don't mattter, I might as well fill out a survey. I'm a survey addict, in case you've managed to keep from noticing. I got this from her. * Have you ever... Been in love? yes Been kissed? yes, but not 'romantically' Been on stage? several million wonderful times Been unfaithful? in my own life, yes Broken a bone? broke my arm on a ukelehle, I did Broken the law? I don't think so Called 911? not yet ::knocks wood:: Called a 900 #? thankfully no Cheated on a test? not during a sane moment, but it seems like I might have Cried over a guy/girl? um, what else is there to cry over? Done something you regret now? less and less- I regret my decisions less and less Drank alcohol? yes, but not in large amounts and not recently Dumped someone else? not maliciously- but maybe? weird to "maybe" have when I've never dated Eaten an entire box of Oreos? close Gone an extended period of time without shaving? yeppers Gotten a ticket for speeding? how about "driven?" no Gotten in a car accident? yes - driving with my mom is *bad* Had a medical emergency? ...yeah Hiked a mountain? a foam one Lied? "no" <--yes Lost respect for someone? yes Lost someone you loved? yes Made homemade fudge? no, but I've eaten it Moved? yes Peed in your pants? hmm...no? Played strip poker? no Ran away from home? yes, but not very far Seen the Eiffel Tower? no, but I'm supposedly "Maris from Paris" and I'd like to Skinny dipped? no Snuck out? not from home- there'd be nowhere to go Stolen? not consciously from an institution (how's that for evasive?) Watched "Punky Brewster"? *of course* Witnessed a crime? road-related, yes Do you believe in... Aliens? not the little green men with the antennae, but yes Ghosts? yes God? yes, but not like this means Heaven? sort of Hell? only when I'm scared that I'm going there Horoscopes? why not? Love at first sight? ih Luck? certainly Yourself? occasionally About the opposite sex: Hair~curly or straight? I've seen both Hair~long or short? depends how often they cut it Honestly, what do you notice first? depends on the person Must-have personality trait: compassion, integrity Thing you love most about 'em? depends Thing you hate about them? manipulation, disrespect What kind of things do you find romantic? in-the-moment stuff that wouldn't make sense here; random acts of kindness thrill me When was the last time you... Ate? a few hours ago Cried? yesterday Got a real letter? a few days ago Took a shower? today Watched Bambi? a long long time ago What is (or something like that)... A good age to get married? for me? never A rollercoaster? hell in a mechanical handbasket Your bedroom like? it's a weirdly shaped loft The best thing that happened to you today? I IMed with Lindsey and got an e-mail from Heather Your biggest accomplishment? getting my life back Your biggest fear? losing someone Classical? yes? what about it? Bill Clinton? was the president before Bush Country? is the opposite of city Your family like? an SNL sketch that's only funny for so long Your favorite thing for breakfast? I adore pancakes- actually, I would like some pancakes now Your favorite thing for lunch? I like pasta Your favorite thing for dinner? I still like pasta Your good luck charm? an angel necklace from Silje, among others Hanson? weren't they a fad in the late 90s? Your height? 5'2" The most embarrassing CD in your collection? the Touched By An Angel soundtrack Your most humiliating moment? I don't want to go down that track in my head...how about the day they count up how many of these I've filled out? Your most prized & important possessions? the letters, cards, and memories I have Oldies? are okay as long as I control when we switch back to my music Premarital sex? sex before marriage Your proudest moment? at RED when I realized I was really getting better Rap? is scary but do-able Religion? is scary but can be good The worst song you've ever heard? I really hate the thong song Who... Are you thinking about? me Do you admire the most? there are SO MANY Do you go to for advice? Chas, Brea, other RED people, Dr. R, myself Do you hate? people who hurt people I love Do you have a crush on (infamous)? I don't Do you have a crush on (famous)? read the journal; I talk about who I love Has it easier, guys or girls? guys, usually- unless they're dealing with me- then girls *definitely* have the easier track Is the best celebrity? erm... Is the person you respect the most? too many Is the prettiest movie gal? I don't know Is the stupidest person you know? erm... Is your favorite Spice Girl? Oregono ;) Makes you laugh the most? currently, Heather Knows the most about you? Chas, Mandy, people from RED Was your best boyfriend/girlfriend? ha Was your worst boyfriend/girlfriend? ha Your favorite person(s) to talk to online? I don't do much of that anymore- but they know who they are Your least favorite person to talk to online? why would I talk to someone I didn't enjoy? I learned that lesson. What are your plans for... Life? practically speaking: to go to Hampshire, study language and mental illness, help people communicate, work to eradicate the need for mental illness as a language; spiritually speaking, to live with a sense of integrity and compassion, to be peaceful Living quarters? one floor apartment of some sort Marriage? allow me to introduce you to my parents Occupation? superheroine A future family? similar to the one I have now, but with less distance between the people I love Tonight? it's so *early* - how should I know? Favorites... Actor/Actress: I like Sandra Bullock (28 Days! yeay!) and Maggie Smith; I like Adam Sandler and Michael Caine (how's that for a duo) Animal: currently, the porcupine Authors: Aimee Bender, Anne Lamott, Joanne Greenberg, Alix Olson, Sapphire, Paul Zindel and so forth Bands: Lifehouse, Ks Choice, Crabs, Rainer Maria Board games: all things Harry Potter, Balderdash Book: *one* is Crooked Little Heart Card game: hmm...as a kid, it was always Crazy 8s (don't even tell me that suggested something) Carbonated drink: does orangina have carbonation? lately, I'm into ginger ale- but mostly I like juice Cartoon hero: Darkwing Duck Cereal: Crispex Color(s): blue/green Color socks: out-of-season holiday socks Commercial: I miss the GAP swing commercials Concert: on tv: Tori, in person: Ani Cousin: I have almost 40 on one side, and you want me to CHOOSE? Day of the week: usually, it's Tuesday Deodorant: anything that does not smell like baby powder Designer: I don't know enough to choose Disney character: growing up, Ariel Disney movie: The Little Mermaid Drink: juuuuuuuice Fast Food: Subway Feeling: safety Font: garamond Foods: erm...? Fruit: cantelope Gemstones: turquoise, jade, that deep black one - amethyst in my birth stone Gift: something with a story (something either homemade or with thought behind it) Gum: minty Hang out: Nuyorican Poet's Cafe *sigh* Holiday: Christmas Eve/ Halloween Ice Cream: cookie dough Thing to do with ice cream: eat it? Inside joke: Once upon a time there was a crazy person named Mary, and she said, Daddy tell me a story, and he said, "Once upon a time there was a crazy person named Mary" etc...(and they wonder why I'm so distraught?) Instrument: cello...mmmm, strings Magazine: Adbusters, The Sun Movie: my current obsession is Harry Potter, but whose isn't? Musical: Secret Garden Nail polish: silver, but it's been years Name: currently I'm into Olga, but it's passing Nintendo game: old school Super Mario Brothers Number(s): 7, 412 Pizza toppings: mushrooms Poet: Emily Dickinson, Alix Olson, and a million others Quote: um...how about "A family's like a loaded gun, pointed in the wrong direction: someone's gonna get killed." <-belle and sebastian Radio station: the truly alternative one Room in your house: my room Rugrats character: Chuckie, duh Salad dressing: Russian Season: Fall Sesame street character: Telly (runners-up: Ernie and Cookie Monster) Shampoo & Conditioner: herbal essences, which is really ironic considering the commercials Shape: hmm...rectangle? Shows: Judging Amy, Spongebob, Once and Again (sob!) Shows/movies with cute guys/girls: urgle Slurpee flavor: different flavors, different days Smell: rain, bread baking Soap: the watermelony antibacterial that reminds me of eighth grade lit Song: oogle..."Silent All These Years" Soundtrack: Secret Garden, unless you mean a movie - then it's A Little Princess...we have a theme Sport: badmitton :) Subject: to speak of- deeply personal experiences, to study- english/ psychology Thing to do when bored: fill out surveys, read, talk to self or someone else Thing to wear: zip up sweatshirts with the spiffy hoods Time of the day: "twilight" Toothpaste: colgate Town to "chill" in: erm...not here TV Channel: sundance ;) TV Show: I already answered that Type of sandwich: tofu and russian dressing on toast (she is a freak) Utensil: fork? Vacation spot: N...Y...C- but San Francisco is also really cool Weather: when inside: rain, when outside: 65-70 degree partly cloudy Website: my journal ;) Winnie-the-Pooh character: Piglet! Piglet! Piglet! Word: perspicacity EITHER/OR 7-Up or Sprite? I go back and forth 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 10 best friends Adidas or Umbro? Target? AeroSmith or Red Hot Chillie Peppers? RHCP Airwalks or Vans? Wal Mart? Alternative or Hard Rock? Alternative AOL 3.0 or AOL 4.0? aohell? Ballads or fast dance songs? ballads Balloons or streamers? both Barbie or Ken? decapitated Batman or Spiderman? batman (but alfred's cooler) Beeper or cellphone? cell phone, no beeper, no...isolation? Ben Affleck or Matt Damon? don't they go together or something? Be serious or be funny? be serious AND funny Big or Little? BIG hugs, little babies Bitter or sweet? sweet Blondes or brunettes? dyed hair is cool Blueberries or strawberries? stwawbewwies Blue or Green? mixed Boxers or briefs? urgle Boys or girls? both! let's all just have a big hug! Brandy or Monica? erm - "Tori Amos"? Burger King or McDonalds? McDonalds Cali. or Florida? I've only been to Cali. but thryn is in Florida, so that's a draw Cats or dogs? kitties Celsius or Fahrenheit? celsius makes better sense, but I'll be lost if we switch from Fahrenheit Chain letters or these things? these things Chatty or quiet? me, quiet- them, chatty Cheater or loyal? loyal Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers? the nuggets, back in the non-veggie days Chocolate milk or plain milk? chocolate Coffee or hot chocolate? hot chocolate Cold or hot? I get sick when I'm hot, so cold Coke or Pepsi? coke (my dad'll hit me if I answer Pepsi, and either way, it's coke) Color or black-and-white photos? b&w Corduroy or plaid? cordoroy Crazed or laid back? both Croutons or bacon bits? crou. tons. Dark or bright? darkish Dawson's Creek or Party of Five? erm... Deaf or blind? blind Diamonds or pearls? pearls prolly feel better to touch, so pearls Disney or Warner Bros.? in terms of cartoons, Warner Bros. Disneyworld or Disneyland? never been, who knows? DW is supposed to be better Emerald or ruby? emerald Faithful or faithless? faithful Flowers or candy or poems? poems Freddie Fish or Putt-Putt? say huh? Fruits or veggies? fruits. and veggies. (and proteins, and fats, and grains...) Gap or Express? thrift shop? Give or receive? give! give, give, give! (and receive a little, too...) Glasses or contacts? glasses Goldie Hawn or Melanie Griffith? goldie hawn Gold or silver? silver Green beans or carrots? carrots Grey or gray? grey Gun or knife? knife (it's hard to cut your food with a gun) Haagen Daas or Ben & Jerry's? B&J Half empty or half full? half full Hamburger or cheeseburger? boca burger/ gardenburger Happy or sad? which do I prefer or which am I? Hardcover books or softcover books? oh! oh! both! *collapses in enthusiasm* HBO or Showtime? hbo? Heaven or hell? here is good Hello or Hi? hi Here or there? usually here, but since I'm in D!@#$%^, there. History or science? science, unless it involves labs IBM or Mac? IBM Jay Leno or Dave Letterman? Letterman Jazz or Classic? Classical J Crew or Abercrombie? K. Mart. Jeans or cords? jeans Jennifer Love Hewitt or Sarah Michelle Gellar? erm... Kissing or hugging? hugging! Lace or satin? satin Laugh or cry? do one until you're doing the other Law or anarchy? you mean I have to *choose*? Lays or Ruffles? lays ('specially baked) Left or right? left Left, right, or ambidextrous? right Lion King or Aladdin? aladdin Little Ceasars or Dominoes? dominoes Live or die? live, damn you! Love or lust? love Lugz or Tommy? erm? Tommy? like on rugrats? Maccaulay Calkin or Elijah Wood? *instantly smacks cheeks and screams* Mary K or Lancome? this is so not my survey Mountains or praries? prairie MTV or BET? um... MTV or VH1? um... Mud or jello? jello. Mustard or ketchup? ketchup. Nacho Cheese Doritos or Cooler Ranch? nacho cheese Nautica or Tommy Hillfiger? *k. mart.* New or old? depends Neve Campbell or Jennifer Love Hewitt? neve campbell Night or Day? both Nike or Reebok? sketchers Now or Later? now Oldies or pop? oldies...unless there my dad's oldies...in which case, pop Old Madonna or New Madonna? "material girl" One piece or two piece? one One pillow or two? two. at least. Open or closed? hunh? Oranges or apples? apples Outgoing or shy? shy Pankakes or french toast? pancakes! Pants or shorts? pants Pencil or pen? pencil or gel pen Pepsi or Coke? coke. still. you're trying to trick me, aren't you? Phantom of the Opera or Cats? phantom of the opera Phone or chat room? phone Pie or cake? pie Pierce your nose or tongue? tongue Piercings or tatoos? if we're going plural, piercings Plain or Supreme Pizza? plain Playstation or N64? playstation Pools or hot tubs? pool Pools or oceans? ocean Popcorn or pretzels? soft pretzel Private school or public school? public Pro-life or pro-choice? pro-choice Puff Daddy or Wyclef? Puff Daddy is a thing of the past, baby, get with the times... Rap or R&B? folk Rap or rock? rock Read or write? write Red car or white car? blue Red or blue? blue Road Rules or Real World? real world Rollercoasters: Deadly or Exciting? deadly! Root beer or Dr. Pepper? root beer Rose or Lily? lily Roses or Carnations? rose Rosie or Oprah? rosie! Ryan Phillipe or Seth Green? I am not in high school, I am not in high school, I am not in high school... Sally or Springer? ahhhhhhhhh! Sam Goody or Tower Records? dinno Sandals or sneakers? sneakers Sandra Bullock or Liv Tyler? Sandra Bullock School or job? homebound school Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes? bluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuue. Silver jewelry or gold jewelry? silver Simple or complicated? complicated Singing or dancing? singing Single or taken? let's leave that be. Skanky or sketchy? sketchy Skateboards or blades? band-aids Skaters or homies? skaters Sketchers or Fila? sketchers Skirt or dress? depends Skittles or M&M's? skittles Smart or stupid? smart Smiling or laughing? smiling Smoker or nonsmoker? nonsmoker Snapple or Fruitopia? fruitopia Snickers or Reeses? snickers Socks or no socks? with shoes, socks Southpark or Simpsons? simpsons! Spring or fall? fall Stay up late or wake up late? both Straight or gay? erm... Stripes or solid? stripes Sun or moon? moon Sunrise or sunset? sunset Surge or Mountain dew? alprazolam Surf the net or do e-mail? e-mail Sweater or sweatshirt? sweatshirt Tall or short? short Teeny or weeny? yellow polka dot bakini Telephone or online chat? telephone. still. Thunderstorms: Cool or Scary? cool Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt? erm Tommy Hilfiger or Calvin Klein? erm T shirt or tank top? either TV or radio? radio Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate Vogue or Material Girl? material girl VMA host Chris Rock or Ben Stiller? aiy...I dinno Warner Bros. or Disney? we did this one! pay attention! The way it is or the way it was? the way it will be Weird or gifted? both Whole or skim milk? skim Wonder or amazement? wonder Wool or cotton? cotton X or O in Tic-tac-toe? x Your Friends Do you have a best friend? many Do you rank your call waiting in order of favorite friends? we don't have call waiting anymore (sob) Who are you jealous of? go back a few entries, you'll see Who do you cry with? who do I *not* cry with? Who do you e-mail the most? lately, Heather Who do you go to for for advice? I answered this! Who do you go to the mall with the most? ha! my parents. the mall is evil. Who do you go to to talk to about girls or guys? um...? Who do you hang out with the most? dr. r., hee hee Who do you get the most surveys from (via e-mail)? friends of friends, i.e. people I don't know Who has the best room? Chas, her classroom Who have you known the longest? Brookie Who knows all your secrets? Chas, Mandy, RED people Whose parents do you know the best? my friends have PARENTS? Who's the best-looking? uh-oh Who's the biggest flirt? ::giggle:: probably Shandi...damn, I wish she could read that. Who's the coolest? me! duh! ;) Who's the funniest? they're all funny. Who's the loudest? um... Who's the nicest? Britt's really nice... Who's the shyest? I was always the shy one - any of you kids shy? Who's your funniest friend? we. did. this. In the last 24 hours have you... Been kissed? no. Been mean? no. Been sarcastic? yes. Bought something? no. Cried? no. (48 hours now.) Cut your hair? no. Dissected something? no! Eaten fluff? fluff? Felt stupid? erm...not terribly. Fought with a friend? no. Fought with your parents? no. (they weren't home.) Given someone a present? no. Gone for a run? no. Gone for a walk? no. (gee, I'm so terribly active, yes?) Gone out for dinner? no. Gone to the movies? no. Gotten sick? felt sick. Had a nightmare? no. Had a serious talk? no. Helped someone? not to my knowledge. Hugged someone? no...:( Met someone new? no (you're making me feel *real* good about myself, mr. survey!) Missed an ex? missed people, yes Missed someone? yes Moved on? hee. no. Not known the answer? yes Said "I love you"? written it Sung? yes Taken a test? no Talked to an ex? no Talked to someone you have a crush on? no Watched your favorite movie? no Worn a skirt? no Worn a tie? no Written a paper? no Written a real letter? damn! no Written in a journal? yes Do you... Ask the guy/girl out, or wait for them to come to you? hide Believe in love at first sight? still ih Bite your nails? very rarely Currently like/love? too many to list Do drugs? no Drink? juice! Eat breakfast and then brush your teeth or visa versa? breakfast, then teeth Eat peanuts? occasionally Eat with your mouth open? no Enjoy reading? yes Ever save AOL conversations? yes Get along with your parents? sometimes Get motion sickness? oh yes Gossip? occasionally Have a car? have a license? Have a deep dark secret no one knows but you? no, but I have secrets few people know Have a goldfish? no Have a job? no Have allergies? oh, yes Have an accent? of course Have any tatoos or body piercings? the occasional rub-on/ henna tattoo and holes where my ears used to be pierced Have a pager/cell phone? no Have a personal phone line? no Have a tan? no Have a website? (address) just the journal and Ed Is Dead Have lots of friends? yeah Have siblings? 4 If you chew gum, what kind? minty If you got a tattoo, where would you get it, and what would you get? I have some symbols I designed, I'd probably get one of those on my shoulder or my upper arm- but needles are evil and I don't do commitment well Give high fives? oh, gosh...it's been SO LONG... Kiss on the first date? have a first date? Like dressing up? no Like newkids on the block? hee hee, no Like thunderstorms? yes! still! Like to swim? can I swim? Make fun of people? my parents Organize your CD's? yes Prefer to date people who are older or younger than you? prefer to date people, period...? Remember where you were when OJ Simpson was let free? yup, I was at lunch/recess in fifth grade Remember where you were when you heard Princess Di had died? I was home Save emails? oh, yeah Shun nudity? I don't like to see it; scary old men on the street, et cetera Sing in the shower? yes Sleep with a stuffed animal? only one?? Take walks in the rain? yes'm Think dreams eventually come true? with effort, yes- think dreams are true to begin with Think you're attractive? (everyone should answer yes!) awww...how sweet of you Use chapstick? no, it's bad for your lips Watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer? I've seen a few episodes Wear eye shadow? no Finish this off... I'm always: tired. I hate: being late. I love: everyone! almost. I regret: beating myself up for things. I want: to be better. I will never forget: what it was like to feel safe. Additional Questions Are you a good student? sometimes Are you a health freak? I'm a hypochondriac Are you a player? what's the game? Are you a vegetarian? yes Are you "cool"? oh, yeah- in my own special way ;) Are you currently in a relationship? I'm in about a billion; isn't everyone? Are you eating? in general, yes. at the moment, no. who are you, my dietician? Are you happy? getting there. Are you hungry? no. Are you involved in music? music is gooood. Are you involved in sports? hee hee, only when no one's watching. Are you lonely? yeah. a little. Are you ready for this survey to end? I'm ready for a nap. Are you talking to someone online? I'm not online. Are you tired? no, I just take naps for kicks. Are you wearing pajamas? no, but this is what I slept in. Describe the best and worst days of your life. wow. best days included: (say it with me, kids) days at red, trainings with Laura, seeing my play, alone-time with Chas, Mandy, Katie, Scott, et cetera...worst days included: major depression/ anxiety episodes, the day I left RED, certain times in school, trauma. Did you eat paint chips when you were a kid? no... How did you spend this past summer? being sick How do you want to die? a long time from now, with notice How many pairs of shoes do you have? a few How many people are on your buddy list? like, 17 How many rings until you answer the phone? two, but I rarely answer it How long can you hold your breath? why would I want to hold my breath? breathing is GOOD... How romantic are you? (scale from 1-10)? oh, baby, I'm an 11. ;) If there was one thing you couls tell someone that you have been hiding, what would it be? that I'm angry about school If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? where I live If you could have one thing in the world, what would it be? less distance between me and people I love... If you could meet one person in the world or bring one person back to life, who would it be? Tracy If you were brave enough, what color would your hair be? blue/green Is it POP or SODA? it's soda, but pop is so much cuter Name some favorite things in your bedroom. my letters, my books, my poster signed by the loves... On a scale of 1-10, rate your relationship with your parents. 5 What are your ambitions? to be true to myself and still help others What are your habits? checking my e-mail when I first wake up, forgetting to take my meds What are your hobbies? reading, writing, singing, performing What are your personality traits? sensitive, empathetic, honest What are your pet peeves? knuckle cracking, prejudice, poor grammar What are your pets' names? no pets currently :( What are your special skills/ talents? listening, writing What are you thinking about right now? that this survey is really long What came first, the chicken or the egg? the egg What car/ cars do you drive currently? none What CD is in your CD player right now? Georgy Rock "Prince of Everything" What color are your eyes? brown What color is your floor/carpet in your room? white-ish What color is your hair now? brown What country do you want to visit? Norway What do you collect? heroes What do you want your future job to be? RED What do you think of Ouija boards? I prefer Balderdash What do you think of people who drink/ smoke/ do drugs? it sucks that they feel the need to do that What is your nationality? American What kind of keychains do you have? Buttercup from the powerpuff girls What kind of sneakers do you wear? I don't What languages do you fluently speak? English What's a non-sport activity that you enjoy? talking What's on your mouse pad? Dell What's the best gift you have ever received? friendship What's the best name for a buttler, Jeeves or Alfred? Jeeves What's the best way to die? how about not? What's the coolest sounding language? German What's the first thing you think of in the morning? sleep... What's the meanest thing you have said to someone? too many What's the most important personality trait? integrity What's the weirdest thing you have ever done? oh, I can't just pick *one* What's worse - throwing up or having a really bad cold for a week? the first one What's your bedtime? 10 or 11ish What's your best advice? Be who you are. What's your biggest fear? losing someone What's your dream car? one that someone else drives? What's your natural hair color? brown What's your zodiac sign? pisces! What was the last CD you bought? Indigo Girls What was the most difficult thing you have had to do? continue recovering What were you for Halloween last year? incarcerated What will you name your first son and/or daughter? surprise What word/phrase do you overuse the most? lately erm and urgle When do you usually go online? in the morning, then sporadically When you die, do you want to be buried or cremated? I want to be immortal, thanks Where are you? at the computer Where do you shop? no shopping! bad! Where do you sleep? upstairs, in my loft Where is your computer in your house? my paperweight is in my room; the computer I use in downstairs in a little room off the kitchen Where would you move if you had the choice? red Which movies have you cried at? hmm...that scene in 28 Days that reminds me of Tracy Which outfit do you wear the most? I go in shifts Would you ever go bungy jumping? I might Would you ever want to be the opposite sex for a day? sure Would you rather be invisible or have the ability to fly? fly The Past Side Does it make you sad that you can never go back in time? yes, except I don't believe that What do you remember most about the last year? getting closer to better What is the memory that you miss the most? what's that color? the one before orange that rhymes with tred? yeah, I thought so. A warning: Don't do this survey. It's just too long. Go take one of the d*land surveys. Or better yet. Go outside. Experience sunlight. Have a life. chord � � |