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6:15 p.m. - 11/09/02 I read tonight that sometimes post-traumatic stress appears after a delay...usually around an anniversary. I wonder if that's why I jump at every noise. I'm paranoid and hyper-alert (to the point that, if I start to trip, the sound of impact as I catch myself startles me). I wonder if that's it. I don't remember what I felt when this actually happened. I remember bawling and begging them to stop time. I don't want to remember anything else. I don't want to think... "And will I see the only home for me?" "It's okay, you suddenly say/ maybe it's love..." "They say I lean on you too much/ They say I'll never stand alone/ But how can they know what it's like/ To live with you inside our home/ You make me grateful for the grey/ You make me grateful for the blue/ Every morning you love me just the same/ I have known you by one hundred names..." -nields chord � � |